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Friday, August 31, 2018

Overdose Awareness Day : Reflections & Tributes From The Women of Canyon Crossing

overdose awareness reflections
He was a fighter
But not the kind who throws punches
More the type to motivate with his will to fight
He was that boy who dreamed of being on stage
Not for the fame but to inspire the next generation
He was the boy who tried and tried to teach me
Bass all the way across the sea on a tiny screen
He was that boy your parents are cautious about
But the truth is under the black hair, tattoos, and piercings
Was a man who showed and gave respect.
Who was he? He was and is my first love who I lost
Lost to this painful disease - he gave up hope too early.

Client A

She was a pre-mature baby who almost died at birth
She has a sister who was born a year and a half later
She loved to dress herself for school even though her clothes never matched
She could eat her mother’s homemade macaroni and cheese for every meal of the day
She loved going to the beach to build sand castles and cover her daddy from the neck down in sand She loved to take trips to Florida so that she could sit on Grandma’s lap - while Grandpa was in the kitchen cooking bacon
She loved summer break from school, because it meant more time to spend outside playing with neighborhood friends
She became a cheerleader in Jr. High
She got her first boyfriend, he was a wrestler
She experienced her first heartbreak and saw how it made her stronger
She had a beautiful childhood.
She grew up to be an alcoholic.
She is me.

Client C

He was a son.
He was a brother and his brother was his best friend.
He grew up playing every sport, but basketball was his favorite.
His act of teenage rebellion was to get a hot pink Fight Club tattoo on his shoulder.
He played Polo (on horses) in Santa Barbara
His favorite place was his family’s cabin in the mountains of Colorado.
He was a true cowboy at heart.
He loved to fly fish and hunt.
He loved Star Wars and cartoons.
He believed that God was a Broncos fan because the sunset is always orange and blue.
He fell in love under the stars in a middle school courtyard in Arizona.
He knew she was the one when we saw her get an extra slice of pizza at a social event.
He was 6’4 and she was only 5”.
He would watch the same shows and listen to the same songs over and over again just to make her happy and smile.
He was amazing with kids and wanted to be a pediatric doctor.
He proposed to his fiancée three times so that everyone from his and her family could be part of the special moment.
He was ready to start a family with her and would have made an amazing father.
He was a Heroin addict.
He died this week of an overdose.
He was my fiancée.

Client J

She was a daughter.
She was graceful.
She was beautiful.
She was loved beyond words.
She was stronger than anyone I knew.
She was determined.
She could find beauty in everything.
She brightened my day & everyone else’s she met.
She loved to paint.
She loved to sing.
She loved music.
Her passion was doing hair & the salon was her favorite place to be.
She loved her family.
She held me up when I couldn’t do it on my own.
She was a heroin addict.
She was my best friend. (Rest in Peace, Adri, I love & miss you so much.)

Client K

He was born July 3
He was a precious little boy
He was his mom’s only son
He was someone’s grandson
He had a Mom and a Dad
He was an older brother to his sisters and new baby brother.
He loved to play football and wrestle.
He loved to work out and lift.
His favorite color was yellow.
He smiled and laughed a lot.
He was the sweetest creature on this Earth.
He would give the shirt off his back.
He would walk or drive miles to save you.
He was so loving and kind.
He was the strongest person I knew.
He adored his family and friends.
He loved music and Kanye West
He was always there for me no matter what.
He was a talented handsome man.
He always put everyone else first.
He would make your whole day.
His soul was perfect.
He was taken before his time.
He was the love of my life.
He was an addict

Client K

She was born innocent and pure.
She loved to make her older brother laugh and they overflowed the bathtub with bubbles every time. She protects her brothers from harm.
She fights bullying and stands up for the underdogs.
She has since elementary school.
She learned to play piano and she sings every chance she gets.
She loved her gymnastic class and soccer team.
She makes friends wherever she goes and loves everyone around her.
She loves every animal, but especially dogs.
She fights for equality.
She works hard at whatever she does.
She loves Halloween and scary movies.
She traveled the world with strangers and left her heart in Barcelona.
She is fascinated with marble statues.
She loves music, but she hates country.
She loves her family with all her heart.
She is creative, artistic, and loves to write poems.
She sees the beauty in the world and talks to the moon, sun, and the stars.
She got her EMT certification at 17 years old.
She cried when she saw fireflies the first time when she was 18.
She dreams big dream.
She fights depression every day.
She is a drug addict.
And she is me.

Client M

She taught herself how to play the piano at age 12.
She was the captain of her High School Swim Team.
She is a Certified Nursing Assistant.
She loves helping the elderly.
Some may say she’s one of the most intelligent people they know.
She helped build a church in Haiti when she was 16.
She is an artist.
She sings at the top of her lungs in the shower.
She writes poetry to express what’s in her heart.
She held her grandma’s hand as she took her last breath.
When she was little, she loved building snowmen for her parents to see.
She was a ballerina for 10 years of her life.
When she laughs, my heart dances.
She loves to love.
She is a drug addict.
She is ME.

Client M

He was the one who recognized the injustice of the place I was committed to when I was only 13 years old and held in for 33 months.

When everyone else said I should be left there - he said no, enough is enough.

He picked me up two days before Christmas.

It was the best day of my life.

He has a warm smile and the best sense of humor.

He got me a 76 El Camino for my first car, because it was built like a tank and he knew it would be safe.

No matter what I would get myself into I knew I could call him when I needed help with something.

He would be there, even if that meant driving to Phoenix from Tucson to take me to appointments and to complete tasks that were tedious and boring.

He is kind and intelligent, outgoing and driven.

He cares about health and knows about new breakthroughs in the holistic medical field.

He is an amazing grandfather and dad

He is a meth addict

Client M

she was an older sister
she was her mom’s best friend
she played soccer
she graduated high school with honors
she rescued animals
she wanted to be a doctor
she gazed at stars & would start food fights
she never littered
she was a heroin addict

Client P

She is a Sister
She is a Friend
She is a Hard Worker
She is Smart
She is Loving
She is Loved
She is Funny
She hugged me when I was sad
She kissed my scraps when I fell
She held me when I was scared
She taught me how to read
She sang me songs
She was the first person I saw when I was born
She is a Meth Addict
She is my Mom

She loves to sing
She loves to dance in the rain
She loves to color
She loves to help other people
She loves to play with kids
She loves to listen to music
She loves to hang out with friends
She loves to play soccer
She loves pigs
She loves purple
She is a meth addict
She is me

Client R

He held me in his arms for the first time when he was four years old.
He climbed tall trees and looked for rocks in the ditch.
He watched Mary Poppins on repeat.
He danced and spun around with me to The Eagles.
He hid me in his closet from a raging father.
He played baseball to make his father proud.
He hugged me in the halls of elementary school.
He jumped in puddles when the rain had poured.
He got bullied for being small.
He went to high school and became silent.
He had friends over to have Dragon Ball Z marathons.
He had a girlfriend who smashed his car mirror.
He went to a private Christian college.
He felt alone.
He moved back home and spoke again.
He watched documentaries about strange but interesting things.
He introduced me to new and fascinating movies and music.
He was always there for me.
He took the most beautiful, captivating pictures.
He wrote the most mesmerizing poems.
He is an addict.
He is my brother.

Client S

She pouts when she’s mad then laughs at herself
She gets mad at me, then asks me to be friends again.
She dances in the rain and splash in the puddles
She is graceful and beautiful but doesn’t know it yet
She sings out loud even when she doesn’t know the words
She cries at everything – happy and sad.
She loves every dog she sees.
She calls all dogs baby.
She misses her ex boyfriend every night.
She has played hockey since she was little, but looks like a super model
She is loud and fun and loves to play cards
She is small but mighty
She love musicals and sing them out loud randomly
She loves Halloween and scary movies
She always asks if I’m ok even when she is falling apart
She uses silly voices to make me laugh
She is artistic and creative and quick witted and hilarious
We love our kids with everything we have
She’s always there when I need her
She has an autistic daughter
She saves people’s lives
She grew up in Egypt
She gives people second chances
She prays and listens to Christian rock as loud as she can
She cooks, she travels, she scuba dives
She trains horses
She speaks Arabic and wants to join the military
She loves the stars
She has amazing tattoos that have actual meaning
She’s lost someone close to the disease of addiction
We are spiritual, we miss our families
We have hopes and dreams
We have integrity and pride
These are my best friends…
They are addicts and alcoholics and so I am…
And we deserve to live ……

Client T

Friday, August 24, 2018

Personal Thoughts, Stories & Reflections From People In Early Recovery: Part 9

recovery
Canyon has taught me that pain is not something to be afraid of; it is part of the human experience and often leads to the most growth. Canyon has showed me that out of darkness comes the brightest light. The following poem by Rupi Kaur describes all that Canyon has given me.

Stay strong through your pain
grow flowers from it
bloom beautifully
dangerously
loudly
bloom softly
however you need
just bloom.

Client J

I have learned new things about myself everyday here. Being here makes me strive to be a better person. I really like the fact I am constantly working on myself and bettering myself. Every day I am confronted with a new obstacle and instead of using I push through the problem and come out a stronger woman.

Client K 

Nature

Sunrise to sunset
Listen to the earth
Listen to your heart
Paint the sky with your colors
Let your body be as still as the water,
And as full with life inside
Feel the quietness, breathe with the wind
You are one with the universe

Client M 

The universe took its time on you
Crafted you to offer the world
Something different from everyone else
When you doubt
How you were created
You doubt an energy greater than us both

-Rupi Kaur

While I’ve been here I’ve continued to work on a relationship with a higher power. I have a hard time with it because of my biases and inability to trust something I can’t always see. At this point I have a vague idea of what my higher power is and I think that’s ok- it doesn’t have to be perfect. I just have to trust that it’s there protecting me.

Client S

Monday, August 20, 2018

Personal Thoughts, Stories & Reflections From People In Early Recovery: Part 8

recovery reflections
STUCK IN PAIN 

It’s like I’m stuck
Stuck in a smoke filled room
I know
I know I need to get out
But the longer I stay
The more I inhale
I swear I’m trying to break free
But the more I try to escape
The stronger the smoke pulls me back in
Why does this smoky haze pull me in so strong?
Who knew?
Who knew you could get a sensation from pain
Pain you think over and over about
Pain you use to create a smoky haze in your brain.

Client A 

I have only been at Canyon Crossing for six days. Everything is so new and different for me, which is scary and difficult for me. What I can say is that everyone has been so understanding, nice and attentive towards me. I went to my first yoga class today and it was amazing. I can’t wait to start my second week so I can see what more new things Canyon will have in store for me.

Client M 

Though a host should encamp against me. My heart shall not fear: though war should rise against me, in this I will be confident.

I chose this poem this week because it reminds me of my continuous fight against addiction. No matter the struggle it may bring. I shall never give in. I have learned the tools through Canyon to fight.

Client C 

I just wrote grief letters and it’s teaching me where I am as far as letting things go, go. Through writing these letters has helped me see that the opposite of love is not hate it is indifference. When I read my letter I felt a lot of energy in my calves (your root chakra) which makes sense because I’m finally using my voice. I have a place on this earth and my voice matters.

Client H 

Grateful! 

Gratitude is very important. I have so many things I’m grateful for today. The main thing is that I didn’t have to use or drink to get out of bed this morning and I know that I don’t have to use or drink to go to bed today. I love that feeling every single day. There is so many things I am grateful for and the list could go on and on for days. But, I’ll stop there because it is the most important for me in my recovery today!

Client K

I want to apologize to all the women
I have called pretty
before I've called them intelligent or brave
I am sorry I made it sound as though
something as simple as what you're born with
is the most you have to be proud of when your
spirit has crushed mountains
from now on I will say things like
you are resilient or you are extraordinary
not because I don’t think youre pretty
but because youre so much more than that

-milk and honey by rupi kaur

Client M 

Who likes change? I know I don’t like change at all, but my life has had some big changes. I moved to OP, moved houses and got a buddy. It has been quite nerve raking and my anxiety has been crazy. Change for me is normally negative change so to have positive change in my life is a whole new thing for me. It has defiantly taken time to get used to having positive change. What I have learned to do is just take things as they come and that is how I am dealing with all of these new things in my life.

Client R 

Coming to Canyon is my biggest victory. Before I came here I felt miserable in my depression. I had just come home from a rehab in Wickenburg and did not apply any of the coping skills or tools I had learned there. I was home for two months and even though I had not relapsed in my drug use I was still hanging out with my using friends and around drugs constantly. My brother was my biggest using buddy and I was over at his apartment everyday begging him to just let me have a sip of wine or one hit of a blunt. He kept me sober even though he used around me. I was going to an IOP in my town constantly leaving early to go hang out with friends and make drug runs with them. I was stealing money from my parents to buy cigarettes and food. I was visiting my old school that I had dropped out of to let everyone there know that I had just gotten out of rehab and that I was a drug addict just to have a reputation. I was hanging out with my ex everyday and sleeping with him while hanging out with my other ex who then assaulted me because he was jealous. After that happened I knew I had to go somewhere. I didn’t even feel safe in my own bed anymore. I was sleeping on the couch every night until Io came here. My life was a mess and I was so close to relapsing. Coming here saved my life.

Client S 

Once I was lost
Deep within a makeshift world
Created by pain, delusion, and hate.
Full of dreams that never came true and nightmares that did
Constantly running…
From them, from myself, from everything I knew.
Consistently falling deeper into dark destruction. In a labyrinth of stopped time
In a maze of insecurity…

Once I was found
I dug my way out
A light led my way;
Created by acceptance, friendship, and love.
Full of dreams that were coming true and nightmares that are in the distance past.
Running toward peace, toward God, toward life.
A direct road to happiness,
A direct road to serenity

Client T

Friday, August 3, 2018

Personal Thoughts, Stories & Reflections From People In Early Recovery: Part 7

recovery reflections 7It’s so easy to slip

I’ve dug 5ft deep by 2ft wide
I’m digging my own grave
It started with a puff of a joint
Then that Russian water to my lips
Sober was a thing for a while
Then back to the Russian water I went
That lead to a joint pursed to my lips
Next came the shiny crystals
Which shortly lead to lights camera and action
I have to remember one is too many and thousands never enough
And one slip can close my casket for good

Client A

I am on my third month at Canyon and I am starting to feel such a change in myself. I am coming up on my 90 days free of alcohol and I am starting to see the truly beautiful things life has to offer. I have connected with my higher power in a way I have never in my life. I owe a lot of this to my treatment center for supporting me through the good and the bad times on my journey of sobriety. I am making such good friends, and I cannot be any more grateful to be sober and a part of life, instead of running from it.

Client C

Be open to change
Create your own reality
Remember that a smooth sea never made a skilled sailor
And you are rising and blooming above the murk to achieve enlightenment
These sayings are very important to me. I have a tattoo representing these so I remember them in my everyday life. It consist of a sail boat in water to remind me that a smooth sea never made a skilled sailor with lotus flowers surrounding it to represent that I’m rising and blooming above the murk to achieve enlightenment, the flag on the sail boat is an open triangle to remember to be open to change and Viking symbols of chevrons that mean create your own reality. These symbols put together remind me what I’ve been thru and that I’ve overcome them and to keep going in life. I will never forget this and I hope you don’t too. Remember that you are amazing and have overcome rough times in your life and you are still beautiful and stronger than ever.

Client K

It has been one of the greatest and most difficult years of my life. I learned everything is temporary. moments. feelings. people. flowers. i learned love is about giving. everything. and letting it hurt. i learned vulnerability is always the right choice because it is easy to remain cold in a world that makes it so very difficult to remain soft. i learned all things come in twos. life and death. pain and joy. salt and sugar. me and you. it is the balance of the universe. it has been the year of hurting so bad but living so good. making friends out of strangers. making strangers out of friends. learning mint chocolate chip ice cream will fix just about everything. and for the things it cant, there will always be my mothers arms. We must learn to focus on warm energy. always. Soak our limbs in it and learn to become better lovers to the world. For if we cant learn to be kind to each other how will we ever learn to be kind to the most desperate parts of ourselves.

Client M 

I saw God today: the sun shooting rays down between the clouds…
I saw God today; In a rainbow we could not find…
I saw God today: in the tears of a friend who was hurting…
I saw God today in the smile of others and the pride in their eyes.
I saw God today; as I looked in the mirror and realized my eyes were clear
For the first time in a long time…
I saw God today; in every raindrop and in every lightening strike…
I saw God today…
Because I was looking

Client T